Beneath Guarded Hearts - 56

Previously…

Asma

He held my hands in a gentle grip as he whispered flirtatious comments into my ears, his soft voice barely high enough for me to hear. I think I was blushing red in all my pictures. But I remembered something else that heated my cheeks even more as I recollected it from the back of my head, where I had kept it off-limits to my wandering thoughts. And I suddenly realized that it wasn’t very far away. In fact, a few hours from now… My cheeks flushed bright red, and 3bdulla mistook its cause for the remark he had just made. But for some reason, I felt that he knew why I was suddenly trying to hide my nervousness.

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Asma

            3wash waved silently, curiosity and amusement in her eyes, whilst Noufyy sent me deliberate glances with outright bluntness. Mayest7oon! Omg they were making everything worse for me! Weren’t my mom or my sister supposed to comfort me, least of all my best friend? Instead, they were all silently laughing at my situation! Ufffffff ma7bhm walla they’ll pay later, especially Noufyy…

3bdulla: “Ladies first.”

            He winked at me as I stepped into the limo with flushed cheeks, noting how oblivious he was to his obvious excitement. Was this what he was looking forward to the whole time? Oh my God, just thinking about it was embarrassing! So how the hell was I supposed to get through this night without looking like a complete idiot?! Ufffff sho haaaaa I can’t do this walla, bas mayestwee 5ala9 ana 7rmata it’s his right w kilshay it’s just ugggh! I’m not ready yet! I was a nervous wreck on my wedding night! This is absolutely ridiculous…

3bdulla: “Mind babble again?”

            He grinned at me knowingly and I simply nodded, hypnotized by his smile. He leaned closer and put his arm around me as all my pulses suddenly came alive, forming goose bumps at the surface of my skin.

3bdulla: “Wooa balach? Latgoolenly bardana…?”

            I shook my head. I was afraid that my voice would break if I spoke. My God, I wish I didn’t get so nervous about everything! The look in his eyes shifted and he held me closer.

3bdulla: “It’s okay to feel nervous 7bibty…”

            My eyes widened in the darkness. How unfair life worked; people could read what we don’t want them to know, but are completely blind to signs we desperately try to get them to notice. What was wrong with this world? Why was everything always against our advantage? I feel so stupid uffffff why can’t I just feel normal…

            I settled into the pillow of his arms and chest and let him rock me very lightly with the movements of the car. It was ironic how I was seeking comfort from the person who was the cause of my nervousness. He suddenly cut the silence.

3bdulla: “Asma?”

Me: “Mhmm?”

3bdulla: “You look beautiful.”

            I smiled at him sheepishly, not really believing what he said and wondering how on earth I was sitting in a wedding dress next to him. I still couldn’t believe that he was mine…

            And typical me, I started tearing up.

3bdulla: “Asma? Laish t9e7en? Lo mb mrta7a walla 3ade mashay mshkilaa maba3’9ibch tsaween ay shay w wala baz3al, just tell me w-”

            I shushed him with my fingertip and gave him a lingering kiss on his cheek.

Me: “I’m just really happy, 3bady… that you’re finally mine. That’s all.”

            He eyed me skeptically, mumbling under the light pressure of my finger.

3bdulla: “Mit2akda?”

Me: “Just because I’m nervous, doesn’t mean that I don’t want it.”

            And no sooner than I’d said that had the driver lowered the mini window and announced our arrival. I think my heart actually stopped for a couple of seconds, if that’s even possible. My whole world was spinning. This was it. This was the moment I had been half dreading and half looking forward to. It’s finally here… Lailat el da5l.

To be continued…