Beneath Guarded Hearts - 26

Previously…

3bdulla

Even as angry as I was, my heart felt like it was choking for breath at the thought of hurting her, her silent tears crawling down her soft cheeks. Maybe this will help her hate me, stay away from me, give her the strength to move on and not look back. Isn’t this what I wanted? So why was I feeling so damned crappy?

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Asma

I swore to never shed a tear for him again. I swore. Yet I break that promise every night, just as I was breaking it right now. Why was he acting so heartless, so cold? What kind of evil spirit took over the 3bdulla that I fell in love with?

As we left the airplane and collected our luggage, my head was down the whole time, and I was as silent as a mouse unless someone had asked me something. Which wasn’t often. My usual hyper state had gone into decline, and I felt like crawling into a hole and crying until I had no more air to breath. And right then, I finally realized how much he affected me, how much he could hurt me without even trying. This can’t happen again. It won’t happen again.

I won’t let him ruin my vacation. I was in Thailand! My favorite, most humble place I could ever hope to escape to. I loved it here. We were heading to a lovely, exotic place called Puket. I loved it there even more than Bangkok. Words couldn’t describe how much that place lifted me.

When we reached Banyan Tree and settled in, I heard a knock on my door. I wasn’t in the mood for anyone. I just wanted to sleep and forget about everything, just for a little while. Was that too much to ask?

9ul6oon: “Asma?”

Why was Sul6an knocking… Ohh! I completely forgot that he was supposed to explain everything to me. But there was nothing to explain anymore. 3bdulla made everything very clear.

            I found myself opening the door anyway; found my ears open with anxiety as the hope I couldn’t deny existed built up. Maybe I misunderstood… Maybe…

Me: “Start talking.”

9ul6oon: “Awal shay sho balach? Why do you look like you're dead?”

Me: “NOW!”

9ul6oon: “Inzain inzain bagoolch laish m7arja? Uffff ma knt a3rf hal gad you're obsessed with him -,-”

Me: “Haa? I'm NOT obsessed with him! Latitfalsaf 3alaya walla mb wagteh w I’m SERIOUSLY not in the mood for your stupid remarks.”

He crossed his arms and gave me a stern look.

Me: “Uffff, sorry sorry I’m just in a really crappy mood! Please just tell me what’s going on.”

He rolled his eyes, and then he was very serious.

9ul6oon: “I… I sort of… told 3bdulla that… errr, that you… ineh Rashid 5a6binnch…”

My eyes widened in disbelief as my jaw dropped in utter shock.

Me: “YOU WHAT????!!!!”

9ul6oon: “Aaaaaih calm down calm down lemme explain-”

Me: “EXPLAIN? THIS IS BEYOND EXPLANATION!”

I was raging from head to toe, my face burning red as the blood rushed violently through my veins.

9ul6oon: “He wouldn’t let it go! 7sharny ya ALLAH ma knt adre what I was saying I wanted to continue my movie w he was in the way and, I don’t know I just blurted it out!”

Me: “9UL6AN!!!!! SERIOUSLY are you KIDDING ME?!”

He gave me an apologizing look, speechless, unable to explain his actions.

Me: “Rashid is NOT engaged to me. I won’t accept it. You said you’d find a way… you said it wasn’t official yet… you… you… Uffff I hate you!”

All of a sudden my eyes watered and before I knew it, a stream of salty droplets blurred my sight. A large form hugged my small body, and I wept onto 9ul6an’s chest as he whispered the words that sealed the future of my life. If I even had one anymore.

9ul6oon: “Asma, don’t cry… I’m sorry, so sorry that this had to happen… I tried to do something, anything, I really did! But it’s very hard when he WANTS it to happen. I thought he would be appalled that his future bride was chosen for him without his consultation, but it seems that he… Oh asamy Allah y5aleech wagfy…”

He didn’t know why I was so against this. He thought it was merely because it was against my will. He didn’t know because he trusted me, and never questioned me. I started shaking and my skin rippled in fear as his torturing words were stomped into my ears. Please let this be another nightmare, please…

To be continued…