Beneath Guarded Hearts - 36

Previously…

Sul6an

--This is going off topic. Do you need my number wila how is this going to work? Or don’t you wanna know about 3bdulla’s video? The one you DIDN’T know about? :D

>Laa2 3ndy ra8mch I’ll call you in 5 minutes

--How do you have my number?

--Wait wait, lemme guess: same way you got my pin?

>I have my sources ;)

--Uggh just call and let’s get this over with!

>Ok

She’s hilarious! 7asait I wanted to chat more weyaha w a3athibha shwaya :p Bas I wanted to hear her voice. For some strange reason…

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Asma

Me: “We have separate seats?”

Mom: “Haaih mama ma7a9alt seatat 3dal ba3a6’ the plane was packed!”

            The only time she actually got unorganized still wasn’t to my benefit. Ya3ni wrong timing, wrong situation. Whatever I shrugged it off w I didn’t really care. At least I would be far away from everyone. Especially him.

            Noufyy was right all along. And now I can see why she has been warning me endlessly. Bas of course, stupid me, I decided to give him the benefit of the doubt. Which was a big mistake. But it was too late. He reached too deep into my heart, and cut it just as deeply. His eyes tormented me in my dreams. I kept seeing images of him doing worse things than what I had seen. Or a part of what I saw anyway. I never found the courage to complete the video, but in my folder it stayed.

            I avoided him as much as possible. He didn’t dare ask me what had happened, why I was acting so awkward around him, why I was ignoring him… what was the source behind the pain-stuck image that shadowed in my eyes. He tried to see through me, to talk to me with his eyes, but I refused to let him in. I don’t think he even knew what he was doing, but I could see it clearly. I hope someday, someone will hurt him the way he has me, and he will finally feel the exact same way that I do. But even as I thought that, I realized that beneath all the anger and hate, I still couldn’t wish for him such a horrible fate. I found the depths of my heart hoping secretly that he finds his happiness, that he finds someone who is worth changing for, and who will make him a better person.

            ‘I wished for your happiness. Did you ever give mine into thought?’ I found myself whispering under my breath, so low that even I barely heard it.

            I made myself move and concentrate on something. Okaay, let’s find my seat! Hmm wain 24A… I’m not gonna let him upset me anymore… 21B… But why did he, and nada, and they… Ufff where is this seat a5er el dnya! I wish I hadn’t fallen for his-

Me: “There, 24A! W a5eeran”

            I put my electronics bag in the upper cabinet and took out some gum from my handbag. When I lifted my head, a shocking bolt ran up my spine as I met the eyes of the passenger beside me.

Me: “You have GOT to be kidding me!”

Rashid: “Asmaa, what a coincidence! We’re on the same flight, and our seats are next to eachother! Now that’s a sign right there.”

Me: “Sign? I’ll bet you planned all this you… you… Ugghh just leave me alone!!”

            I was surprised to hear a disappointed sigh from him.

Rashid: “Well, there really isn’t anything you can do now. The plane’s about to take off. 5thy mkanch and maybe later you can try to switch seats with Sul6an or someone ok? Bas not your crazy cousin Allah y5aleech!”

            I laughed at that. He seemed… different. I suddenly felt safe around him, safer than 3bdulla actually. A bright, fresh aura gleamed out of him and he smiled at my puzzled face, sending my nerves in flames. Well, this reaction was new. I never thought he would have an amazing smile. Maybe because I never bothered to look at him properly…

Me: “Okaay fine.”

Rashid: “That’s the spirit.”

Me: “Ya ya don’t get your hopes up. I still hate you.”

            He raised his brow at me.

Rashid: “Don’t tell me. Another lecture on my forcing this marriage on you? Allah y5aleech save it and maybe, just maybe we’ll have a pleasant flight.”

Me: “I wasn’t going to say anything.”

            He snorted at that. He turned back into the same devil I had known him to be. Should’ve known.

Rashid: “Save your lies w your spoiled speech about how much your life is ruined. You’re so selfish matfakreen fe ay 7ad 3’air 3mrch! Did you ever consider that maybe it was forced on me as well?! I’m so tired of trying to please you when you obviously despise me. Walla this isn’t worth it 5alha tzig she doesn’t wanna make it work at least kaifha I have better things to deal with than another spoiled brat…”

            He started mumbling to himself at the end, as if I wasn’t even there, as if it wasn’t me he was talking about! He didn’t give me a chance to react, much less give him an answer. Well, this was new! He shoved his headphones into his ears and completely ignored everything around him. A frown creased my forehead, and I don’t know why I felt a little ashamed under my annoyance at his attitude. Had I been overreacting all this time? Was he really not the person I thought he was? But that night… How could I interpret it any other way?

            ‘You’ll never know unless you ask him…’ I heard a voice in my head tell me. I sighed. It was time I brought up a subject that had been neglected for too long.

To be continued…